my life is a madhouse. for some reason, i enjoy beating my body and mind with more events and projects than i ever thought i could possibly handle.

for those of you who don’t know, i am currently enrolled in the interactive media and web design course at capilano college (i’m sure there’s no one reading this that doesn’t know me). although some of the classes seem to waste more time than they do accomplish anything, we are taking a database course as well as a php programming course. between these two classes i have enough work to keep me busy and utterly stressed out most of the time.

However, that just doesn’t seem to be enough for me.

1. i just got a gym membership, that i intend to use at least three times a week.

2. i seem to always find myself doing another contract job that consumes more of my time than i expected

3. on top of everything, i also decided a to do my final directed study in ruby on rails (a framework that i know nothing about).

my conclusion: i’m a glutton for pain.

here’s my dilemma:

i have two books that seem to sit on my table playing devil and angel in my head. the php book is the angel; it says “derek, read me. i am everything that actually matters. i am what you’re supposed to be reading”. and the devil is my ruby on rails book. it says: “derek, i’ll make things so much easier for you. you know you want to… i love you”

for some reason the seductive devil always wins.
it’s definitely starting to effect my schoolwork, but the way i see it: at least i’m not wasting away my days watching people injure themselves on Youtube.